The Polygamist's Daughter

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Get Behind Me Satan!

Those of you who know me really well know that I don’t believe in the whole Satan, demons, heaven and hell story.

So you might be wondering, “Why the heck did she come up with this title?” Well, I had an epiphany earlier today about what The Christ meant when he said, “get behind me Satan”. He was talking about fear. Fear makes a big, fat mess of everything and blocks your desired progress.

fear_2 meanings Fear is sneaky, deceptive and disguises itself in many forms. It disguises itself in ways that are almost undetectable. Fear is so deceptive that sometimes it even looks like love. It shows up in your relationships as anger. It shows up in your career as distraction. It shows up in your personal life as complacency. It even makes you want to over-eat, and dare I say it, get drunk. It is the root of stress and frustration. It is the cause of scarcity. It creates feelings of shame and unworthiness. It can even keep you stuck in your own proverbial hell.

Until you learn to recognize fear for what it is and put it behind you, it has the ability to block you from ever experiencing the deliciousness of life that is your birthright.

Understanding fear and the role it plays in your life is a process of digging down through the layers of beliefs that you have picked up in your lifetime. Most of your beliefs are actually other people’s beliefs that were placed upon you as children. They came from your parents, your religion, from school teachers, from friends and siblings, and even came from the media. Some of them you might have created as a child in an attempt to make sense of the chaos around you. Most of your beliefs are based in fear and when you go looking for them, their irrationality will surprise you. The best part, is that once you recognize them, you can put them behind you once and for all.

Were you ever told as a child, “You’re a bad kid. You’re not worthy. You should be ashamed of yourself. You deserved to be punished. You had it coming. You need to feel guilty for what you did. You are just a stupid girl…?”

Unfortunately our subconscious mind buys into other people’s beliefs about our worth and potential. How can you tell if your belief is fear-based? It’s pretty simple. All you need to do is look at the language in the belief and feel how it sits with your core. If there is any kind of judgment attached to it, it’s fear-based. If it feels constraining or limiting in any way, it’s fear. If there is any worry or stress involved with it, you got it, its fear. The opposite of fear is love. Not the mushy, gushy love most people think of. The love I am talking about is intrinsic, it is unconditional and it is free. And, it is far more powerful than fear.

You can put fear behind you with the power of love, simply by overwriting your beliefs with truths.

Truths are always based in love. They will always support you and they will always empower you. You were born in love and learned fear as a child, and as such you can also unlearn it. You can simply choose to no longer believe in your irrational and fear-based beliefs. One of the greatest tools for putting fear behind you is self-forgiveness. Once you recognize a fear-based belief you can forgive yourself for ever buying into it and then overwrite it with an opposite belief that is based in love and empowerment.

If you are really ready to own your true worth and value, it’s time to excavate your old beliefs. Take them out, have a good look at them, and decide whether you are ready to finally put them behind you, or better yet, transcend them.

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Children of Cain, aka the Seed of Satan

The belief that people of African descent are of less value than God’s favored white people ran very deep in my childhood religiosity. It was believed that Blacks were the offspring of Satan through the lineage of Cain. That they were cursed with a dark color so that we would know to fear them and avoid them at all costs. To me this is one of the most hurtful and hateful beliefs ever propagated by religion. The belief that God despises some of Earth’s children so much that he holds them accountable for the actions of their ancestors thousands of years before their birth is mind-boggling. Talk about harboring resentments.

This was one of those beliefs that deeply affected my life for a very long time, really until just a few years ago. I had many dark skinned friends who I adored, yet still felt fear around them. Although I stopped logically believing this nonsense many years ago, my body did not get the message. While I truly enjoyed the company of my friends and their beautiful energy, I found it difficult to feel as connected with them as I was with my Caucasian friends, and this deep-seeded reservation really troubled my heart. To put it in easy to understand terms, I practically had an anxiety attack whenever I hugged one of my friends. It literally gave me heart palpitations, which I found very disturbing.

Once I understood where the root of my anxiety came from I was able to deal with it through forgiveness, compassion and love. After confronting the belief and working through it, I cleared any control it had over me and its remnants in my body. Freeing all of me up to genuinely love my friends, regardless of their physical appearance, and embrace them without reservation.

I am now able to see the ridiculousness in the belief that the shade of a person’s skin plays any role in their physical and spiritual worth. The rainbow does not judge one of its colors as better than another or the sun judge a ray of light as more valuable than the next, and yet we somehow have bought into the irrational belief that the Creator judges some of us as more worthy than others, simply because of our ancestry.

What makes this belief all the more irrational and inconceivable is information we now have about humanity and our collective evolution. Thanks to science we now know that all human life originated in Africa, which means we all had dark skin at one point in our ancestry. It really is amazing how one person’s story and perception spreads like a wildfire of destruction through the hearts of humanity, causing us to hold resentment toward other members of our human family. The belief that Black people are evil is only one story that shows evidence of how hurtful and unjustified our beliefs can be.


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Revelations and Visions

I grew up with the notion that the mind was the devil’s playground and that it should always be kept busy with the words and works of God. Anything that came through imagination from Satan and was to be dismissed as such. In that belief I did not use my childhood imagination, did not allow myself to fantasize about a different life, and did not believe in magic of inspiration. Everything that existed in my life was literal, physical or explained by religion. There was no imaginative play, creative expression, or belief in the magical world of fairies, princesses and fantasies. There was no Santa Clause or Easter Bunny. If it was not justified by religious dogma, it simply did not exist or was considered evil.

In high school I was introduced to painting and I fell in love. But underlying my love of creativity was that already rooted belief that my desire for individual expression went against God’s will.  I gave up the one thing I loved most in life and never picked it up again. I was taught that the desire for anything beautiful came from a desire to be part of the world, and that the world was evil, under the control of Satan and his army of demons. And, I was taught that only men could receive revelations and visions from God.

As I grew older and came to understand what I saw as the true nature of God. I argued with my parents that God was not sexist, but still I did not understand the true meaning of revelation and vision. I was under the continued belief that only men could receive a direct connection to God, and those who called themselves prophets were the closest to God. I was jealous of men and resented them for their power over me. And, I did not make a connection between the power of my own mind and my ability to create.

It was not until a few years ago that I came to recognize I had been receiving revelations and seeing visions all of my life. Until that moment I did not see the creativity in every building, every business and every endeavor for what it really was. Everyone has access to inspiration, simply because they have a mind. Everything on earth that is created by humanity comes first though the imagination, and what I now come to recognize, as inspiration. Revelations and visions are imagination.

As I came to see the magical qualities of inspiration and creativity, I came to see the true ability of using and harnessing my mind and my imagination. I came to recognize that I could use the power of my imagination to create the direction of my life. I allowed my mind to open up to inspiration and the inspiration filled me up. I saw the power of envisioning and what vision really means, using my mind’s eye to create my desired reality. The ability to use my mind to see what I wanted created passion and enthusiasm around what I envisioned. As I envisioned what I wanted, it drew to me more inspiration. As I became more inspired I began overflowing with creative juices.  It became as though a tap had been turned on and I was unable to stop it.

The more I envisioned and created, the more was revealed to me about my own potential and unlimited possibility. The more I envisioned, the more revelation about my life purpose emerged. My life became so filled with passion and enthusiasm that I could no longer focus on my problems; I simply did not have the time for it. I began to live an inspired life, filled each day with visions of grandeur and revelations of what is possible, not only for myself, but for humanity as a whole.